Change, Change, Change

AAAAGH! Does my new banner scare you? I am not a hyena in real life – I promise. I found this picture of an extremely ecstatic me after Meredith was born in September, and it just made me laugh. I thought it would embody my “blog motto” perfectly – at least until one of you or I get sick of looking it. Adding the picture made me think about all of the blessings and joys that God orchestrated on to the pages of his symphony in my life in 2006 . . .

This year has seen its share of woes in my life – many of them temporary and self-inflicted, while others proving to be the perfect, pruning hand of my Master. I have so many thoughts to journal about my prayers, intentions, and dreams in 2007, as you probably do. I want to put them in a post soon share and hold myself more accountable. Indeed there is something about writing down your goals that seems to mentally solidify them into a heavier state of resolve. I’m compiling my thoughts over the next few days. Meanwhile, as you ponder the coming year and celebrate the arrival of 2007, I bid you the joy and medicine of a merry heart that comes freely and only from Jesus Christ.

For He himself has said, “The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy. I came that they may have life and have it abundantly” (John 10:10).

Happy 2007!

Goodwill

Hanging out with my kids is such a blast. We were listening to Handel’s Messiah earlier today, and I asked Lydia to bring over the Nativity while we changed Meredith’s diaper. I love the “little people” nativity. Lydia overheard me yesterday telling Steven that the most important piece of the nativity set was Jesus, and several minutes later I walked over to see Jesus perched up on the top. She had taken the angel off and replaced it with Jesus. :) Sweet!
We showed Meredith the manger. Lydia said she didn’t want to play with it anymore. So I “pretended” to be teaching Meredith about Jesus’ birth and chuckled as Lydia and Steven began falling over each other so they could hear it, too. :) A few minutes later Lydia was running around with the angel and shouting, “Glory to GOD! Glory to GOD in the HORSES!” I said, “Lydia, the angel said ‘Glory to God in the highest!’ ”
She came and sat down on the blanket with Meredith and me.
“Mommy, look, the angel has butterfly wings!”
I smiled.
“Mommy?”
“Yes, Lydia?”
“Why does the angel shop at Goodwill?”
I’m serious; that’s what she said, and I just giggled until I could backtrack enough to explain that one :)

Back in the saddle?

I started running again this morning. Finally! I fed Meredith, put her in bed beside a sleepy husband, and I headed out the door. “You’re going where?” he asked. Ha. “Just don’t let her fall off, okay?”

I was a gymnast for 18 years, and I relished just about every minute of training, stretching, pounding, rushing, and competing. It was my life for a little while, and I really loved it. After my sophomore year in college I stopped cheerleading and took up running. I decided it wasn’t worth getting dropped on my tailbone anymore in front of thousands of people (yes, it really happened once, and I had to wear a pillow on my butt to chemistry class for weeks because we had hard, wooden seats in there).

I took the cell phone in case I got desperate. That bad, huh? Needless to say, I haven’t been running much in the last 2 years. Breathing in the air was nice. Watching the early winter sun rise was even better. I saw a couple dogs and owners, and I managed to not get hit by any cars. The pain was worse in my ears more than anywhere else. I have sensitive ears in cold, morning air. Running in the ‘burbs just isn’t that exciting, though. I’d rather be in a busy downtown or off on a distant, country road, but I’m not complaining. Anywhere is nice as long as I’m able to run. However three babies and no work-out regiment calls for a real strain on a body when you just jump-start it like that. I’m definitely going to need to build up to a good level, and I’m not going to expect too much while I’m still breastfeeding since I don’t want to burn all the calories I need for my little baby.

It was funny. Around 11 am I was EXHAUSTED. By 1:00 I was a goner. “Lord, I’ve already put in a good seven hours today. I just don’t know if I can do eight or nine more!” (Nobody told me that homemaking + motherhood really is a 18-24 hour job, or if they did I guess I didn’t believe them until now!) It was about 1:30 pm when I cuddled into Steven’s bed and said, “Okay, guys, Mommy is going to take a little nap while you play.” (Bad idea!) Lydia was so cute, playing “doctor” on me. “Mommy, you’re 65.” (She was taking my temperature.) “You need a shot.” She proceeded to “hammer” on my arm with the toy syringe. “Bang BANG BANG!” until I said, “Um, I think you got it in there fine, honey.” I’m thankful real shots aren’t administered quite so forcefully. She said, “Mommy, you need to take off your shirt because I’m going to get blood on it.” I sat up. “What?” “I’m going to take your blood pressure. Now take your shirt off so you don’t get bloody.” Oh, chuckle, chuckle. Next it was “see how many toys we can pile on Mommy’s head!” Ouch! I erupted in contagious laughter. “How in the world is Mommy supposed to sleep like this?”

They played really well, though, for about thirty minutes. Then the screaming and pushing started — all over the green crayon. It was wild. I had to get my bearings, reluctantly discipline (oh, why is so hard to be consistent?), and then it was “forgive, give kisses,” and naptime for those two sillies. Meredith slept through the whole thing from her crib against the wall. She has no clue what she’s getting into.

(PS – If you haven’t seen this yet, you should. Very interesting, and if you had/are having a baby this year, this is certainly a baby-book keeper.)

"He wasn’t a baby long!"

One time when Lydia was about four months old, I held her in my arms at church and told a friend, “Ohhh, how I wish she could just stay a baby like this forever!” I remember my friend smiling and chuckling to herself as she said, “I know, it’s wonderful, isn’t it? But you wouldn’t want that. A baby is meant to grow older, and as you watch her grow, you will be so happy that she didn’t stay a baby forever .” I figured she knew what she was talking about since she has three grown daughters and one still growing. Now that Lydia is a little older, I agree from experience (and have the same thoughts all over again with the other two)!

At Christmastime our minds’ eyes gaze upon the baby Jesus lying placidly in the manger, as if time is standing still. Yet we have the privilege of coming after him in God’s historical timeline and knowing the whole story — That he didn’t stay a baby in the stable full of hay, for he grew in perfection until God appointed him to be slaughtered for the sake of His people who would come to believe in his power and goodness and save us from wretchedness. There is no doubt we didn’t deserve this. Some of us are slower than others to come, but all of us who come are lame and blind. All are brought to him as dead men. Why would God send him as a baby to save all of us, who are unable to save ourselves? God did it, and we know this was his perfect plan.
I think of how Mary must have felt as she witnessed the beautiful eyes of baby Jesus, and how she stroked his cheeks with her hand for the first time. What melodies of love must have flooded her heart as she heard him breathing at her breast! Every new mother is tempted to worship her own newborn child, and for her it was truly proper to worship him! I wonder at the miracle and that she didn’t just die right there from the overwhelming love she had for this baby God. I would be tempted to think so if I didn’t have the Scriptures to tell otherwise because I know how deep the well is in my own heart for my own babies. To look into the eyes of the newborn son of God would have been too much.

It is perplexing to think of him as the “baby God.” But there he was, God as a baby. He went from a manger of hay to the throne of glory. And this Christmas I remember my friend’s smile and thank God unceasingly that Mary’s baby was not a baby forever. As he learned to hold up his head, eat solid foods, crawl, run, kick, dance, and verbalize his thoughts, his immaculate power was slowly unleashed. No, there was no baby, but it was the very Muscle of God incarnate, hanging there on the Cross. Praise the Lord of angels, kings, and all men that I can come boldly to the throne of grace! As I kneel before the manger, I come boldly to the Throne.
Come Boldly To The Throne Of Grace
© 2005 Red Mountain Music

Taken from the Gadsby Hymnal # 675
Words – D. Herbert, printed in the Gadsby Hymnal, 1838.
Music – Clint Wells and Brian T. Murphy, 2004

Come boldly to a throne of grace,
Ye wretched sinners come;
And lay your load at Jesus’ feet,
And plead what he has done.

“How can I come?” Some soul may say,
“I’m lame and cannot walk;
My guilt and sin have stopped my mouth;
I sigh, but dare not talk.”

Come boldly to the throne of grace,
Though lost, and blind, and lame;
Jehovah is the sinner’s Friend,
And ever was the same.

He makes the dead to hear his voice;
He makes the blind to see;
The sinner lost he came to save,
And set the prisoner free.

Come boldly to the throne of grace,
For Jesus fills the throne;
And those he kills he makes alive;
He hears the sigh or groan.

Poor bankrupt souls, who feel and know
The hell of sin within,
Come boldly to the throne of grace;
The Lord will take you in.

"Replacement Words"

Okay, so no one liked my plastic bags post. I didn’t either. It was sort of silly anyway – think I’ll delete it.

I was thinking today about something and thought I’d ask all the other bloggoparents out there – or maybe you don’t have kids but are around kids a lot, so feel free to join in the fun and offer your comments! I don’t know what you call them in your house, but I like to think of them as “replacement words.” Doesn’t everybody have them? There those little words and phrases you have used all of your life, and now that you have young children who are listening to everything you say (and repeating mercilessly), you realize how irrelevant, negative, or just plain silly they sound. You decide that you have to break your habit. Worse than breaking the habit – you have to replace the phrase with some creative verbal concoction that will satisfy both you and your children’s little ears. I don’t mean that I said curse words all the time before I had kids, but it is amazing how the things I have always said don’t sound so good anymore. Here are some of the words and phrases I have found myself wanting to change…

“What in the world?!” — this isn’t so bad, but it has no meaning whatsoever
“Oh my goodness!” — When I was 8 years old, my mother’s good friend who taught me piano called me out one day after I said this. She said, “Kristi, have you ever thought about what that means when you say you are good? The Bible says no one is righteous.” I remember going home and sulking and never understanding what she said for months, if not years. Now I smile because she was trying her best to correct an attitude in my heart that was coming out in my habit of sarcastic speech. And to this day, I respect that woman very highly. Lydia said, “Oh my goodness” the other day (no doubt because I have said it many times), and thought of that piano lesson flooded my mind.
“Oh my gosh!” — trying to eliminate (why did I ever get into the habit of saying this?!)
“Chill out” — this has to be one of the silliest things I’ve ever gotten into the habit of saying — Eric and I say it way too much
Nevermind — there has to be a better way to express my frustration than this
“Stupid” — a day is bound to come when my kids say it for themselves or call someone this and I feel guilty
“Whatever” — I don’t usually say “whatever” by itself, but I use it entirely too often when talking about whatever’s on my mind (haha) — trying to replace with just plain “what”
“Like” — I have the “like” disease (inserting the word “like” into all kinds of sentences), and I don’t want my children to have it!
“Awful” — there are plenty of words like “bad,” “negative,” etc. that I could use because I use that word way too much
“What’s your problem?” — The truth is probably my kids don’t always have a “problem” when I ask them this. This phrase flies right out of my mouth too often, and I just need to slow down and think before I ask a direct question to see what the situation needs.

It’s not so much that I want my children to speak correctly (although that is a goal I have), but I think too often my words convey an impolite or casual attitude when I should be more respectful. I want our kids to speak to us and other people with respect, so I’m in that process of trying to break some habits in my speech to do so. I know that kids are going to learn words from other sources than Eric and me, but we are doing almost all of the teaching at this point, so we need to do our part. Does anyone have any suggestions? What are your “replacement words?” Does anyone have funny stories concerning this? I’d love to hear :)

Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen. Ephesians 4:29 (When I read this verse, I find it so hard to believe that the Apostle Paul didn’t have kids!)

Holiday Demos


Right here on this very blog, you can view Christmas history in the making!

My friend Jill (What? You don’t know her? I thought everybody knew Jill!) from FL made a recent recording with a few of her friends in Canada, and the little I can hear is fabulous. Click this Myspace Music site to check out the clips. (Give it a bit to connect and buffer to play.) Jill is a great person who loves Jesus Christ extremely, and it always comes out in her angelic, Godward voice. I miss you, Jill!


Also, more pictures. Here is this morning’s attempt in our family to make a snuggly Christmas kids pajama photo. Oh, poor Meredith! Anyone with toddlers (like my friend Carrie!) has shared this experience, I’m sure. If two of the kids were smiling, the other one was bound to be running away or screaming! I got a pretty good one for keeps, but of course it’s a secret for the grandmas to see later. I hope these make you smile and laugh!

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