Heartsick
Last night I broke down while I was rocking Steven, thinking how much I just want to be with Jesus. Sometimes I get those “heartsick”, “homesick” feelings in me when I’m longing for heaven and wanting to finally be with my Savior. Emily and Tammy encouraged me in their emails this morning. Emily reminded me: “I pray that He gives you peace and hope in remembering that this world is not our home and that we can rejoice in the hope of heaven… what a blessing to have somewhere so perfect to be homesick for…” Do you ever just get homesick for heaven? We’ve had a rough couple of days lately at our house, and Eric and I just sat together last night when he came home and talked about why God makes us feel “heartsick” for Himself sometimes, and how awful it would be if we had a perfect life and never had those moments longing for our home…
On a more “sugary” note, here is Lydia helping me bake a carrot cake last night.
She LOVED licking the icing off of the beaters! That’s the first time I’ve made a cake and let her eat all the icing leftover, and boy did she love it! She kept saying, “Wantsommma,” which she says all the time now. haha
Here are Eric and Steven at the kitchen table; I love this picture because they both have on their striped shirts and look so cute.
I better go while the kids are asleep, so I clean up our “dresser mess” from this morning. Lydia and I got all of Steven’s drawers out from his dresser so we could put away his newborn clothes (sad!) and organize his bigger sizes! Don’t you just wish your morning was like this???
He’ll Make Me Happy
I’m crying!
I’m about to go to sleep, but I was looking at the poll down on my blog, and I thought to myself that I would love to hear my wedding song right now. Awww….
Eric and I danced to this sappy tune at our reception. Get out the tissue and take a listen!
Memories!
http://www.homeofthesampler.com/mp3s/hellmakemehappy.mp3
Commercial of Silence
My children are asleep, and all I hear is the sound of birds outside my window. I absolutely love the sound of silence in mid-afternoon. It’s refreshing. We are bombarded with noise all day long, and it’s nice to have what I call “commercials of silence.” My mind always moves toward God more when it’s quiet. I know that’s something the people without homes from the hurricanes miss. I pray that God gives them moments of quiet peace amidst the turmoil, as these dayswill be difficult for them.
I just read some of the posts on blogs from people I know, mostly xanga sites. You learn a lot about people. Can you imagine what God’s blog looks like? Wow. If we could read it, it might be like, “Today at 4:30 We are here, and here, here, there, there, also here, and here, here.” Ha Ha.. Hope you laughed at that.
I am sad when I read how self-centered some people are, but I am truly inspired when I realize how some people are honestly humble and looking up to God with every breath of their lives. I want to be one of those people. Mostly I’m not, but I know that it is getting better the closer I get to heaven. I know I’m not alone. There is that “great cloud of witnesses” that grows more each time a soul is changed forever, and the saints that have walked before me bear testimony that God doesn’t give up on us. That’s how I can see how Philippians 1:6 is manifested. I can see it in the way God ordains my life. Like how God provides every single penny Eric and I need when we’re strapped for money. We never go without. It’s amazing. We know when we wake up every morning that God has been working while we slept, and He already lined up how He would meet our needs. It’s humbling. And like how I am constantly correcting Lydia to be obedient, and I know God is doing the same with me (only my tantrums are worse)! I wish I could do it with a perfect heart like God does.
Not just with money, but with time, loneliness, lack of vision for our family, discipline, impatience – he is the Perfect Provider. We DESPERATELY NEED all of God, and He GRACIOUSLY GIVES all of Himself, all by His grace.
I love some of the words I heard from my husband, Pastor Hayes and Pastor Hopper this week. Eric said at youth group: Why do we have a problem with grace? Because we don’t think we need it. So true. And yesterday I was reminded that God’s anger will never fall to me because it was ALL placed on Jesus when he died. Now that’s grace. Oh, I need his grace. Every minute, every day. And you do too.
I miss our families.
Merry Hearts, Joyful Smiles
So much fun! I just put my new banner at the top. I love all this silly css stuff. Nooo, these are not all of mychildren! haha! These are some of my dearest favorite kids – friends and family members’ children. Don’t you just love the one of Lydia’s hair sticking up in the bath tub?! One thing I think about when I read the verse in Proverbs about having a merry heart is, “Kids sure know how to have merry hearts.” Sure, they have not-so-nice hearts sometimes too, but they show us what it’s like to have childlike joy. I know every time I post on my blog I will smile to see all these adorable, happy faces!
Lydia definitely loves to talk on the phone now. She wanted to say hi to the grandparents. Enjoy!
Lost Women . . .
Wow.
Tonight’s discussion really encouraged me. I went to the Fall Rally for our church’s presbytery. In case that bores you, I think you could read an interview with the author of the book that was our guest speaker and find interest there. The author’s name is Carolyn, and her message and our Q & A time with her afterwards refreshed my soul. Carolyn is an amazing warrior for the Gospel of Jesus Christ, and it’s quite inspiring to see how God is using her to make His name loved among men and women with her books.
One reason I love her message is because she is taken with the idea that God wants women to be thinking women. Theology is not a male sport. The other concept that she talked about that hit me like a waterhose is this idea of today’s woman, Christian and nonChristian, being “lost.” We are lost because we have put ourselves in a box and have failed to see all that God wants us to be — 1) His image-bearers and 2) A Warrior. A warrior, in total military-language sense of the word. Read on in her interview if this appeals to you.
I’m going to the living room so Eric and I can talk about it. I told him to read the online blip about her books first so I wouldn’t have to explain everything that she said (my throat still hurts)! Hope your Friday night was as good as mine was….nothing beats talking about the glory of God.
Military quote of the moment: wyc( yhwh wnlxe BGye hhe Kye hLxmO Bye qrb (Zechariah 14:3, Hebrew) –Then the LORD will go forth and fight against those nations, as when He fights on a day of battle. (Zechariah 14:3)
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